[narrator] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:
- [BaiIey] Patient's name! - How many times...
- [Yang] EIIis Grey. - Meredith's mother.
It's not that Burke broke up with me, it's how he broke up with me.
Have you even toId Burke about the baby?
Cristina!
[Addison] It's an extrauterine pregnancy.
Stop taIking to me Iike you're my boyfriend! Stop taIking to me at aII.
If you came here to try to win me back, forget about it.
I just know I stiII Iove you.
Hating you is the most exhausting.
[Meredith] The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial.
We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared,
we deny how badly we want to succeed,
and most importantly, we deny that we're in denial.
When I Ieft, Cristina said she was OK.
Nobody goes through what she did and is totaIIy over it by now.
- Cristina can. - She's fine.
Too fine. She's coId.
No, she's hardcore. She's got ice in her veins.
- She does what she has to do to. - She Iost a baby.
And a faIIopian tube. She acts Iike she doesn't care.
She's aII ''HeIIo, I'm totaIIy fine.''
She's my friend too but she's acting Iike she has no emotions or warmth,
Iike she's missing a souI.
- God, she's gonna make a great surgeon. - George!
It's true. You show no weakness, you make it to the top.
Some peopIe just keep their feeIings to themseIves.
[Meredith] We only see what we want to see
and believe what we want to believe.
And it works.
We lie to ourselves so much that, after a while,
the lies start to seem like the truth.
Meredith kissed me. Addison kissed me.
My wife and my girIfriend kissed me on the same day.
Joe, do I Iook friendIy to you?
Oh. Yeah, you're a tiny IittIe kitten of joy and Iove.
- What? He saved my Iife. - His first mistake.
McDreamy, go sit by someone who cares.
[Meredith] We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth,
right in front of our faces.
Everything's gonna be fine. Addison'II go back to New York.
Meredith and I wiII start over, everything's gonna be fine. Right?
You so damn stupid.
[BaiIey] I want everyone focused.
With Cristina out, we're short an intern and I feeI it wiII be one of those days.
- And, Karev, see the chief today. - What for?
Do I Iook psychic to you? He's the chief. He asked. You go.
- What did he do now? - Maybe he gave the chief syphiIis.
So we're in the middIe of the BeIizian jungIe and this jaguarondi
jumps out and bites one of the guides.
They aII Iook at me. They're yeIIing, ''You're a doctor, heIp him!''
This is one time a Ph.D. does no good.
I'm sorry, did I miss the beII for sociaI hour?
- Missionary taIes. - You're a missionary?
No, my parents. We traveIed a Iot. They stiII do.
Wow. This stuff is great.
Um, this is Dr. Burke's patient, KaIpana Vera...
''KuII-punnah.'' Named by viIIagers in NepaI.
Presents with muItipIe syncopaI episodes and ventricuIar arrhythmias.
- So you've been passing out? - And having paIpitations.
History of rheumatic heart disease with mitraI vaIve stenosis.
They had to ship me from Zambia to the States
for three months of treatment when I was eight. Rheumatic fever aImost kiIIed me.
Dr. Stevens. What are the primary causes of ventricuIar arrhythmias?
VaIvuIar disease, mitraI vaIve proIapse,
stimuIants, drugs, and metaboIic abnormaIities.
[PA] Scrub nurse to OR Six.
- What? - Out.
- I'm fine. - Out!
You better be in your room by the time we round on you.
- And when wiII that be? - In fifteen seconds.
Fourteen, thirteen, tweIve, eIeven...
- Nice panties, Yang. - [giggIing]
In your dreams, EviI Spawn.
Cristina Yang. Post-op day three from a uniIateraI saIpingectomy.
- And ready to get back to work. - Is she?
I'm taking soIids and my pain is controIIed with oraI meds. I'm ready.
Didn't the nurse say this morning you had a fever?
- Mother. - Cristina, did you have a fever?
Temp spiked to 1 01 Iast night. Big deaI.
She worked two shifts with a 1 02 degree fIu.
Yes. ExactIy, George. Thank you.
And we appreciate your dedication, but you stay in bed untiI it normaIizes.
I keep teIIing her there's more to Iife than surgery and career.
Go uphoIster something.
Look, I need you to reIax, shut up, and get better.
You're a patient this week so you can be a doctor next week.
Mer. You cannot Ieave me aIone with her.
I am fIying over the cuckoo's nest here. Save me.
- You need time to heaI. - I'm heaIed. I'm heaIed!
Oh, God.
OK, Dr. O'MaIIey, you're presenting.
OK, Dr. Grey is post-op day three from a tumor resection.
Wrong, wrong, wrong. He's got it aII wrong.
It's not asthma, it's GERD. He needs a Nissen fundopIication.
- I don't want her in the room. - Mom!
She's a chiId and I won't have her on my team.
We'II meet you outside, Dr. Grey.
[PA] Dr. Marash to Cardiology. Dr. Marash to Cardiology.
- Skipping rounds? - Avoiding mother.
Meredith...
- You've got a wife. - Yes.
- Your Iife is compIicated. - Yes.
I don't need compIicated. I have compIicated aII on my own.
- Yes. - Stop saying yes.
I'm trying not to make any sudden movements.
- You think this is funny? - Addison's Ieaving.
She doesn't have any more patients here.
- There's no reason for her to be here. - No reason?
None whatsoever.
WeII now, isn't this cozy?
Can I join in or are you not into threesomes?
[PA] Dr. Shannon, 1 436.
- I have to go. - Meredith...
You reaIIy are Satan. You reaIize that, right?
If Satan were to take physicaI form, he'd be you.
- Everywhere, aII the time. - I am so not Satan.
Why haven't you gotten on your broomstick and Ieft?
- Stop being petty. - Stop being an aduIterous bitch.
[elevator bell]
You are going to forgive me eventuaIIy?
You can't just...
There was a time you thought of me as your best friend?
There was a time when I thought you were the Iove of my Iife.
Things change.
Divorce papers.
Your Iawyer said they're OK. I haven't signed them yet.
The baII's in your court. If you sign, I'II sign.
I'II sign and be on the first pIane out of here.
I'II sign them immediateIy. I want you out of here soon.
Derek, have you ever thought that, even if I am Satan and an aduIterous bitch,
that I stiII might be the Iove of your Iife?
[# Psaap: Crazy in the Rocket]
[guIIs cry]
[steady beeping]
[sighs] It's my chart.
You're the patient. Not the doctor. Act Iike one.
- It's been tough finding you aIone. - Yeah? WeII...
- How are you doing? - You have my chart. You teII me.
How are you doing?
I'm fine. PerfectIy OK.
- I had a right to know. - WeII, now you do.
- Cristina... - Look. Now you know. It's over.
There's nothing for you to deaI with. So what eIse is there Ieft to say?
- PIenty. For starters... - Oh, Iook. It's my mother.
Dr. Preston Burke. Nice to meet you, Mrs. Yang.
ActuaIIy it's Rubenstein.
Dr. SauI Rubenstein of BeverIy HiIIs? The oraI surgeon?
I'm remarried. Been remarried since Cristina was, what? About three?
Mom, that's too much information, he has other things to do.
You're good-Iooking. He's good-Iooking.
Why don't you ever bring home a man as good-Iooking as him?
- Stop. - What?
- Stop taIking. - Cristina. Forgive her.
I don't know what I ever did to raise such an unpIeasant girI.
- Oh, me? I'm unpIeasant? - Excuse me.
- Do you know who that was? - Who?
- That was my boss! - I onIy said nice things.
Why'd you caII me unpIeasant in front of my boss?
Lighten up, pIease.
OK, I was thinking that maybe we might want to... you might...
- OK, we both have tonight off so... - You are so into me.
- Shut up. - It's sad. The worship. The adoration.
And I'm so handsome, I intoxicate you.
OK, you know what? Forget it.
Izzie, wouId you Iike to go out with me tonight?
On a date? And you wear something gorgeous, I pay for food...
- Are you making fun of me? - I'm not making fun of you.
OK, then.
- Good. - Good.
I said I never wanted to see you again.
'Cause you're too Iazy to Iearn anything more.
Dr. Meredith Grey, Jeremiah Tate.
Thinks he knows so much because he was my first intern patient.
I knew as much as her. She was cIueIess about how to treat cystic fibrosis.
A choIecystectomy turned into a month-Iong stay.
Better not be aIIeging maIpractice.
Guy raises about 1 00,000 grand a year for cystic fibrosis, running triathIons.
- Thinks he's a big shot. - You run triathIons?
- Why not? - Pain for one.
- FinaIIy admitting to feeIing a IittIe? - A IittIe.
How IittIe? Truth.
Enough to keep me awake at night.
Had some seizures. Too weak to work out.
Anyone been through here with your CT resuIts?
No. It's probabIy just my pancreatitis kicking up again.
AII right then. We'II be back.
With your resuIts and a pIan.
Where do your parents think you are this time?
[chuckIes] New Jersey.
What about his parents?
He doesn't Iike to bother them untiI he's weII or about to get discharged.
He understands his reaIity. He just chooses to ignore it.
DeniaI works for him, Grey.
''AbdominaI pain.''
''PerirectaI abscess.''
''Gunshot wound to the head.''
Where the heII's this GSW to the head? Why wasn't the trauma team caIIed?
HeIIo? Are you peopIe insane?
There's your gunshot victim.
Him?
I'm redoing the Iiving room in beige siIks, I'm thinking.
And modern. Very mid-century.
- And the dining room... - Mother, give me back my toes.
OK. I change the subject.
- Who's the father? - Mid-century, did you say?
Someone you work with, right? Was it just for sex?
You make such a point of not forming attachments.
20 minutes. AII I want is 20 minutes of peace and quiet.
The daughter I raised wouId appreciate her mother's heIp.
The daughter you raised is begging for you to go. Now.
I didn't have to come here. You know I'm very busy.
Yeah, I know. Redecorating your house.
WeII, can you get me a mocha Iatte, pIease?
A non-fat one.
No. A fat one!
You're waIking, you're taIking, there's no exit wound.
- This mark here Iooks more Iike a burn. - I'm teIIing you, I shot myseIf.
PuIIed the trigger cIeaning my .22. I thought the cIip was out.
If you're thinking suicide, don't.
PeopIe make mistakes. I made a mistake.
And now I'm paying for it. But I did shoot myseIf.
- Where's your IV? - I'm taking soIids. I Hep-Locked it.
- On whose orders? - Mine.
OK. Yang.
How about this order: ''Bed rest, out of bed to chair, bathroom priviIeges.''
Nothing about steaIing charts.
OK, you know what. Hey. Give me that.
There. Satisfied? I'm ''out of bed to chair.''
- I'm teIIing your intern on you. - Meredith?
- Yep. - Oh, I'm so scared.
- Dr. Grey, how are you doing? - You're here. Good.
I need the resuIts of the barium esophagram or the EGD.
And you have neither. OK, no worries. I'II be here when you get back.
So today you're her intern. WeII, that's better than being her husband.
- That's a matter of opinion. - Good morning, EIIis.
Richard, good to see you. I need those Iabs immediateIy.
Chief? She's not a surgicaI patient anymore.
And I'd reaIIy Iike to get back to the OR.
So, do you think I couId hand her off to someone eIse?
O'MaIIey, AIzheimer's causes her reaIity to shift depending on situation or mood.
She needs stabiIity right now.
That's why I'm depending on you to keep a speciaI eye on her.
Yes, I know, sir.
But, you know, it just doesn't seem fair to me.
I need those studies yesterday.
You heard the doctor.
Get moving.
I saw that. I saw you take that piII.
Oh, it's my piII. You know, the piII.
It's not in your chart. You're supposed to teII us aII the meds you're on.
You're not my doctor. You shouIdn't even be here.
- She's right. You shouIdn't be here. - She took unauthorized medication.
I'm on the piII and I had grapefruit juice this morning.
Since the juice inhibits enzymes invoIved in the metaboIism of OCPs,
I avoided the interaction by taking it two hours after food.
She has a doctorate in neuropharmacoIogy.
- I don't see oraI contraceptives. - Guys.
Now you wiII. Go back to bed and stop poaching my patients?
This is ridicuIous! Go back to bed and stop poaching my patients!
[rapid beeping]
- She's in V-fib! - CaII the code!
- [PA] Code blue, second floor. - [Ioud gasp]
- Code blue, second floor. - [coughs, inhaIes deepIy]
- [man] You got the code equipment? - It's aII ready to go.
- No code? - Not anymore.
- Can you heIp us get her back in bed? - I'II heIp.
[Izzie] WouId you just go back to bed? Go!
Oh, God. You know, Izzie, if she's on OCPs, can we mark it down, OK?
Yeah.
[Meredith] Jeremiah's got a mass in his midepigastrium.
Diffused enIargement of the pancreas.
That, with his hypogIycemic seizures...
He's gonna need an expIoratory Iaparotomy.
But, despite his triathIons, his Iungs stiII make me hesitant to cut.
What are we going to do?
- I don't know that yet. - Doctors.
- Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd. - How oId is he?
- He's 26. - A survivor, huh?
And then some. My patient for at Ieast five years.
- I'm not gonna Iose him now. - You pIanning a Iaparotomy?
Yeah, but his Iungs.
You know, I think I couId heIp you with this.
I've seen one case Iike this in a nine-year-oId.
We had to do a totaI pancreatectomy.
I'd be honored to take any heIp you can give me.
You're a neonataI speciaIist. What...
This isn't your area.
I'm just saying. I...
I did genetics research in cystic fibrosis.
- I've pretty much seen it aII. - Oh.
[PA] Dr. Ramirez, please call extension 543.
Just because she offered her services doesn't mean she intends to stay.
- WeII, what does it mean? - It means that she's a good doctor.
[Iaughs]
- Why are you suddenIy defending her? - I'm not.
Meredith, she gave me divorce papers. She fiIed.
Oh. WeII, that's good.
AII I have to do is sign, and I'm free.
We're free.
Is there anything to think about?
No, of course not.
I read through them, sign, then Addison's on the next pIane out of here.
- You say he got shot in the head? - He says he got shot in the head.
I say he's a mentaI defect.
- Hi. - Ma'am, you can't be in here.
I'm Iooking for SamueI Linden, he...
Oh, my God. SamueI. WeII, how bad is it?
- Are you his wife? - For 21 years. Just teII me how he is.
Fine, for a man who says he shot himseIf.
He shot himseIf. He was cIeaning his gun. What is wrong with you peopIe?
We'II know when we finish his CT.
- This is a restricted area, ma'am. - My husband has a buIIet in his head!
Then we'II find it. Wait outside,
I'II be with you as soon as we know something, I promise.
Of aII the fine doctors in the city, you accept a consuIt from Addison Shepherd?
- Montgomery-Shepherd, isn't it? - She shouId be on her way home.
You're trying to drive me crazy, aren't you?
- [bell] - Hey, don't...
You think this has something to do with you?
You think I'm even thinking about your romantic probIems?
I'm trying to heIp a patient very near and dear to my heart.
And if consuIting with your wife, your ex, your mistress,
whatever she becomes, if that's what's needed to save my patient,
- then I'm damned weII going to do it. - I understand that.
I deserved that. It's...
Look, you have put yourseIf between two very fine women
and you're Iooking for an easy way out.
You want to use me, the hospitaI,
somebody to make the decision for you, and it's not gonna happen!
- CouId I just say a coupIe of things? - Just...
You scared us a IittIe there. How's her work-up coming?
EIectroIytes are within normaI Iimits, urine tox was negative and EKG's fine.
TiIt test is scheduIed for noon. Oh, and she's on contraceptives.
- So? - That's what I said.
That other doctor made such a big deaI of it.
She didn't teII us before. So I documented it in her med Iist.
- What other doctor? - Cristina. She was wandering the haIIs.
Fine. Take her down for an echo.
An echo? What about cardioversion or abIation?
Won't I need a pacemaker or a permanent internaI defibriIIator?
AIthough it wouId be unusuaI for rheumatic heart disease
to cause ventricuIar dysrhythmias, we've stiII got to check your vaIves.
I thought your doctorate was in neuropharmacoIogy, not medicine.
It is.
Addison gave Derek divorce papers, which is good.
I mean, she's stiII here, being Addison, but it's not Iike I'm jeaIous.
- That's odd. - It's odd that I'm not jeaIous?
No, you have every right to be jeaIous.
It's your territory and she's peeing aII over it. What's odd is Burke's patient.
Four other hospitaIs this year. Something's not right.
- Why the interest in Burke's patient? - This has nothing to do with Burke.
You Iost a faIIopian tube, a baby, and a boyfriend aII in one day.
You have the right to be upset.
You're Iosing McDreamy to his wife. You have a right to be jeaIous.
I did not Iose McDreamy. Divorce papers, remember? And I'm not jeaIous.
- And I'm not upset. - You reaIIy shouId be in your room.
If this was reversed, wouId you want to spend time with your mother
in a confined room with one window?
Do you think we're Iike them? Our mothers?
[announcement over PA]
Uh, where's your mom?
ExactIy. Where is my mother?
- Where's your mother? - Funny you shouId ask.
Oh, crap.
Oh, man, you are not going to beIieve this.
No. It can't be. The guy was reading a freaking magazine.
It's definiteIy a buIIet. Tracked cIear through his head.
Now are you peopIe just going to sit here or get him into surgery?
Here's the missiIe track. As you can see it doesn't even cross the midIine.
He's Iucky. This guy may have even been sitting there taIking to you.
He'II need debridement of the entrance wound and repair the dura,
but we won't need to remove the buIIet.
That's an exceIIent diagnosis, Dr. Grey.
I'm Dr. Shepherd, I'm your neuro consuIt.
Dr. Grey, they need you upstairs.
- You'II book the OR and staff? - I'm on it.
- UnbeIievabIe. - O'MaIIey.
Can you not handIe this, doctor?
I can handIe a Iot of things. WheeIchairs. Come on, Dr. Grey.
[Addison] We won't know for sure untiI we go in there,
but it Iooks Iike I'm gonna have to take out your pancreas
and re-route your intestines.
Did you teII her my Iungs don't do weII with anesthesia?
Don't I aIways have your back?
Your kidney function is decreasing and I'm afraid
you'II go into muIti-system organ faiIure if we don't operate.
- If I say no? - There's no guarantees, Jeremiah.
It's going to be a Iong, hard surgery, and put a Iot of stress on your body.
Yeah, but I'm me.
- But you're you. - So if we don't operate, I die.
And if we do operate, I may die.
BasicaIIy, yes.
WeII, I Iike those odds.
And 26 years with this disease is awesome. And that's the reaIity.
So if I get Iucky, great.
If I don't...
it's been sweet.
It's gonna stay sweet.
[Derek] We'II need to do a psych evaIuation.
How many times do we have to teII you? He wasn't trying to kiII himseIf.
- It was an accident. - They're just doing their job, hon.
- Their job is to make you better. - Where were you at the time?
I was in the next room. And I heard the shot. And it was awfuI.
- It's over now. - [AIex] Why didn't you caII 91 1 ?
Because he was onIy unconscious for a moment.
And then he was waIking, and taIking and...
You'II have to give a report to the poIice.
- PoIice? - Why do we need to taIk to the poIice?
We have to report any gunshot wounds to the poIice. It's the Iaw.
You're officiaIIy AWOL, you know.
I'm working. Trying to figure out what's going on with the crazy woman on four.
You are the crazy woman on four.
I made a break for freedom. Hand me that dictionary.
[sighs] You have a better patient than me and you don't even have a patient.
Meredith's got a CF case. AIex's got the gunshot wound.
Izzie's got the mystery arrhythmias. I'm not a nanny.
I am a surgeon. A cutter.
But no, I'm getting fake Iabs for a fake patient so she can do a fake surgery.
- She's faking it. - It's reaI to her. It's AIzheimer's.
The missionary. KaIpana...
[groans] God! Thank you!
Ow!
UncaIIed for!
- Izzie. How have her studies been? - I've been Iooking for that everywhere.
Negative, right?
Oh! The echo test showed miId mitraI stenosis, the tiIt test was negative.
We're doing EP studies.
I know what's wrong without sticking eIectrodes in her heart.
- ReaIIy. Just by the chart? - No, from the piII she took.
They were contraceptives. Why are you so obsessed with this? Just go back to bed.
- She's doing this to herseIf. - Inducing ventricuIar arrhythmias?
- She'd have to be crazy. - No, she'd have to have Munchausen's.
Wait. You think she's secretIy ingesting something to produce reaI symptoms?
- SeriousIy? - Yep. Just run it by Burke.
- TeII me what he thinks. - TeII him yourseIf. He's behind you.
[husband and wife taIk quietIy]
- Where are we? - OR Two in 30 minutes.
He's prepped, transpo's on the way.
[woman] Do you understand that? 21 years!
- What's that aII about? - I haven't got a cIue.
I Iove you. I forgive you.
You cheated on me. You cheated on me.
- You do not get to pIay the martyr. - I got a buIIet in my head.
- And that doesn't make us even. - You shot me!
I think we need to get the poIice up here right now.
She obviousIy Ioves the patient roIe. She practicaIIy Iives in hospitaIs.
And we're Iike an imaginary famiIy to her
because her reaI famiIy bIows her off to go take care of other peopIe.
- And I saw her take something. - That's not enough.
We have to ruIe out everything eIse.
She Iied about her job. She's a pharmacy tech, not a Ph.D.
So she's a Iiar. I've been Iied to before.
- We're not taIking about us here. - Maybe we shouId be.
- I didn't Iie. - You withheId the truth.
OK, you know what? I remember you breaking things off with me.
You didn't seem so upset about it. This? This is not a reIationship.
- This is not reaI. - Cristina!
OK, and so what's with the big fake dispIay of hurt and drama?
- Cristina! - I'm supposed to be in bed.
Cristina!
Officers, thanks for coming.
Ma'am, why don't you have a seat? We need to ask you a few questions.
Uh, of course.
WeII, nothing Iike a domestic dispute to Iiven up a pre-op, huh?
- [Jeremiah] Where do I sign? - [BaiIey] Here, for consent.
And here for DNR and no extraordinary measures.
[BaiIey] Good. OK, Iift up for me.
You shouId probabIy caII my parents.
CaII them yourseIf when you waIk out of here.
Dr. Grey, I have those Iabs...
Oh, no you didn't. You Iost her again? Again?
I am a surgeon. A surgeon!
[chuckIes] Yeah, weII.
You won't be when Dr. Webber finds out you Iost EIIis Grey again.
[Iaughs]
[beeping]
We're using three different catheters. Why are we doing that, Dr. Stevens?
Programmed eIectricaI stimuIation maps the heart's eIectricaI system
- to find the focus of the irreguIar... - Doctors? Sorry to interrupt.
- [Burke] Yes? - Her urine's bIue.
What?
Why is her urine bIue?
She says she has a surgery scheduIed with Dr. Shepherd?
- I turned my back for... - Why did you turn your back?
I toId you to take care of her!
Just get out of here.
You want to find a hot surgery, then find one.
You're free.
I'II take care of her.
[AIex] This is one sick bastard. We shouId fIip him over, give him a spine.
PuII back on the retractor, Dr. Karev. A IittIe suction.
Covering for his wife after she shot him?
- He did cheat on her. - And that's worth a buIIet in the head?
ReIationships are buiIt on sacrifice.
- Not that kind of sacrifice. - I don't know.
Sometimes a buIIet's worth it.
Richard, I thought you'd never get here.
Look, the OR's empty, I have a IittIe time before my surgery.
I don't think I'm supposed to be here.
No.
No, you're not.
Come on, I'II take you back to your room.
[BaiIey] I need more traction. Dr. Grey?
Here, give me some suction there.
Grey, retract the duodenum. Good.
How's he doing?
- Hard to ventiIate and no urine output. - He's shutting down.
- Did you increase peak pressures? - Any higher, I bIow his Iungs.
Bradycardia. Pushing one of atropine.
[Addison] Try ventiIating him manuaIIy, see if he starts coming back up.
- [BaiIey] Did we miss any bIeeders? - SurgicaI fieId is cIear.
- AgonaI rhythm. - [BaiIey] Any puIse with that?
- [anesthesioIogist] No carotid. - Starting CPR. Push one of epi.
No extraordinary measures, Dr. BaiIey. He's DNR.
No, this is just good medicine.
[rapid beeping]
BIue urine?
A second drug screen was positive for amitriptyIine,
which, I'm sure you know, causes ventricuIar arrhythmias.
You knew it wouIdn't show on a drug screen,
but I'm guessing you didn't reaIize it turns urine bIue.
I didn't do this to myseIf. You have to beIieve me. I'm sick.
- I have something... - No. You're just deceiving yourseIf.
Manufacturing things that reaIIy aren't there, seeing onIy what you want to see.
Wasting our time, our resources, and throwing away your own Iife.
Your iIIness is in your head, KaIpana.
We wiII be transferring you to Psych.
[rapid beeping]
Come on.
Come on, don't give up. Come on.
You're getting tired. Let me take over, Dr. BaiIey.
[Addison] Dr. BaiIey, his intestines are cyanotic. There's no bIood circuIating.
It's been shunted to his brain where he needs it. You caII those compressions?
[grunts]
[rapid beeping]
Fight it. Come on!
Why isn't anyone moving? Who's recording?
It's been ten minutes since we had a perfusing rhythm.
It's your caII, Dr. BaiIey.
- [continuous beep] - One, two, three...
AsystoIe.
[beeping stops]
Time of death: 1 9:26.
[sighs]
It's hard to accept the end when you're too cIose.
Look, I don't want someone who doesn't want me, Meredith.
But if there's the sIightest chance that he does, I'm not Ieaving SeattIe.
What did she teII them?
That you cheated on her, that she was drunk,
and you were cIeaning your guns in the kitchen.
- I'm not gonna press charges. - It doesn't matter, she confessed.
- AssauIt in the first degree. - They arrested her?
Man, you shouId be gratefuI.
You know what I am?
I'm stupid.
Nothing is more stupid than cheating on the woman you Iove.
You don't know what you're missing.
Your Iatte's by your bed, and I'm pretty sure it's coId.
- [exhaIes] I don't need it. - You shouId be in bed.
Stop it. I'm fine, OK? My brain is fine. My body is fine. I'm fine.
- I don't know why I came. - Then why did you?
You know, I... Just stop it. I don't...
I'm sorry I'm not that person. I'm sorry I don't need you here taking care of me.
WeII?
You were right. KaIpana definiteIy suffers from Munchausen's.
See. I was right.
I was right.
I was right. I was... [sniffs] I was right.
I was right.
Oh, I'm...
[bawIs] I'm right...
I'm right... I'm...
You took the CIinicaI SkiIIs section of your medicaI exams after most interns,
so the resuIts are onIy now coming out.
I got a caII from USMLE this morning.
Oh.
So you're saying...
Karev, you're stiII an MD. You stiII get to practice medicine.
The hospitaI grants you four months to retake the exam.
You study it, you pass it, you put it behind you.
One misstep doesn't affect your career.
Right, thanks. Thanks.
What happens if I take the exam for a second time and I don't pass?
You wiII no Ionger be a surgicaI resident at SeattIe Grace.
FaiIing again is not an option.
[waiIing]
- What's going on? - I can't stop. I can't... I can't stop.
Crying. She can't stop crying.
I can see that. What did you do to her?
Nothing.
She's going to dehydrate. Cristina, do you want some water?
No. No.
[both] No!
I aIready tried that. It just made it worse.
I knew she'd break sooner or Iater. Just a matter of time.
I wiII kiII her!
I am her mother.
We don't do weII with mothers here. Why don't you Ieave and come back Iater?
Cristina.
Make it stop. Make it stop.
Somebody sedate me! [sobs]
[Meredith] Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass.
And when the dam bursts all you can do is swim.
The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon.
We can only lie to ourselves for so long.
[# Merrick: Infinity]
We are tired. We are scared.
Denying it doesn't change the truth.
Hi, Mrs. Tate?
It's Miranda. Miranda BaiIey.
I'm caIIing about Jeremiah.
I'm so sorry.
She doesn't want to be touched.
[Meredith] Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial
and face the world head-on, guns blazing.
- Hi. - Hey.
- You Iook great. - Thanks.
- Are you OK? - Yeah, you ready to go?
Yeah, you just... You don't seem Iike yourseIf.
No. Look, we got dinner reservations. We shouId go so, Iet's go.
OK.
[Meredith] Denial. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean.
I'm gIad we're doing this.
Me too. Want a drink?
- Yes. Oh... - That's OK, I got it.
I'II get it.
[Meredith] So how do you keep from drowning in it?